Take 2

I am back after 2 weeks of wailing and gnashing my teeth due to no weight loss. I went to the doctor for a check-up and I weighed the same as I had a month before. I about lost it. So I did something terrible and I didn't eat and when I did eat I ate too much and I didn't go to the gym and I cried about my lack of motivation and how pathetic and fat I was and then finally I told myself to get over it and that I'll do better this time. My insane friend Mary gets up at 5am every day to workout, so she encouraged me to do the same. 5am is unneccessary in my life, but 6am could work for me, so I did it this morning and I'm doing it for the next week. Hopefully it will jump start my metabolism and I can keep this going. I love love love having my workout done first thing in the morning and not having to worry about it throughout the rest of the day. Now, if I could just get some energy.....

back in the saddle

Well, after finding out I am pregnant, having company in town for a week, and spending several days on the Oregon Coast with my sisters and mom, I feel somewhat justified in experiencing a temporary BFL hiatus. But never fear! My excuses have officially run out and I am back at it. It feels so good to eat right and exercise.

for dinner tonight we had macaronilaatiko.
It's a finnish dish my brother learned about on his mission. I think it's BFL approved. Just ground beef, macaroni, and eggs. Topped with reduced fat cheese of course. So, in a casserole dish, spread the browned beef, top with macaroni and drizzle like 7 eggs evenly over it. top with cheese and bake at 375 for 35-40 minutes. Serve it with BBQ sauce or ketchup all over it. So basic, it almost sounds gross. But it's good! I promise.

Free Day

I used to look forward to free day every week. It was like a reward for sticking to the diet or something. Now, it's sickening. I still really like eating all the food I want but it makes me soooo sick now! We made hamburgers last night, the really fatty kind that are really good, with french fries and Henry Weinhard's orange creme soda. Yum! We chowed down and felt so happy until later that night when Erik and I felt sooooo sick. It's good that I am doing so well with the eating that my body rejects this fatty food but I still really like to eat all the junk! I'm torn between the fat me that wants to eat the crap and the skinny me crying out to eat the healthy stuff! Ahhhh!

Frustrated

I havn't lost any more weight. 2 1/2 weeks and I only have 4 pounds to show for it. I just keep waiting for the scale to go down and it's not. What am I doing wrong? If I could just lose 10 pounds I would feel like I was doing well. I NEED that for motivation. Not that I'm going to stop or anything, but I am truly feeling awful about my weight right now.

are we allowed to have honey? I make these awesome peanut butter balls that use it...

Horray!

I'm so proud of myself. I went to bed at 10:30. That's about 3 hours earlier than normal. THEN I got up at 7 and went to the gym. It's a miracle! It is so nice to be done with my workout for the day. Now I don't have to try to squeeze it in somewhere. I'm going to try to make this a habit..wish me luck!

Count me in!

As of today, I am jumping on the wagon.. Body for life works and I love it when I do it. But I should say upfront that I am not exactly a purist body-for-lifer. I have mayonnaise on my turkey sandwiches and make my protein shakes with milk. I know, what a cheater.

My husband, sister and friend are all doing this with me, so some of the experiences and tips I share may come from them. For one, my sister, Kamie always makes up a big thing of doubly concentrated shake in the morning so she can take a swig of protein, whenever she really needs a carb. I have found that to be a great technique and adopted it as a daily practice.

Also, I love to make up a batch of salsa chicken in the crocker every other week. it's just salsa and chicken tenders/breasts, on low for six hours. Shred it and wrap it up in a tortilla. mmm..

Today was kind of a crappy day to start. I couldn't get to the grocery store because I had to babysit all morning and afternoon. Now my kids are asleep, and soon my hungry husband is going to be home wondering what BFL approved delight we will be devouring for dinner. Better get creative.

Bad Day

I've been having a bad couple of days. We've been doing a lot of shopping lately with all of the clearance sales going on and it's so frustrating to want to buy some really cute clothes but I'm STILL not thin enough. Erik and I have been doing this diet for 2 months now and I've only lost 10 pounds! When we started this a year ago (before I was pregnant with Makayla) I lost 10 pounds in one month! So by now I should have lost 20 pounds, right? Why am I struggling so bad? Is it just the fact that I just had a baby 4 months ago? Is it that my body has decided to hold on to the weight more than it used to? Am I doing something wrong? Usually when someone is nursing a baby they lose weight easily...of course that doesn't apply to me! That would be too easy! I do have good weeks where I do really good with the workouts and eating everything just right and then bad weeks where I don't go to the gym like I should or I let myself eat things I shouldn't eat. Either way, nothing changes. It's very disconcerting when you don't see results for weeks. Sorry this is so down...just feeling very AHHHH! It helps to write this down though...very therapeutic!